суббота, 25 сентября 2004
you went offline! Oh well...
I love you, hon. Just today a couple of hours ago I was talking to Vazgen about you and how close we got in that year. I didn't expect that would be even possible. Remember when once I was like "People can't become friends in a year! " and then I thought "Wait, me and Danielle have been friends for LESS than a year, and we're so fucking close... Hey, maybe that *is* possible..?" and you turned to me as if to say "hey, what about us then?" and I was like "Whew, I can't even believe WE've known each other for less than a year ...".
Don't know why I'm writing this . I just noticed that I'm not on your 
- list anymore and it felt weird. I mean, I know you love me, but I just got a bit scared. When I was reading about how much you hung out with DC and Eric and other people I felt glad cuz that means you don't miss me to death 
. But still I don't want to let you go completely. Selfish? I don't want you to be obsessed with me or anything lol. It just gets me so scared thinking that you might kinda forget me. That's kinda natural tho. We don't talk much and stuff...
OK... That was my verbal diarrea lol.
awwww ruzannaaa! i didnt take your name out because i thought any less of you, i just felt that you were included in "true best friends", so it seems repetitive. plus i dont like to make things a competition between friends and all...or at least have them think of it that way. of COURSE i love you!!!!!!! youre still my best friend (NO DOUBT!), so dont think anything otherwise! yeah i hang out with eric and danielle a lot now, but hon i cant replace you i dont want to let you go completely, i dont want to let you go at all! (oh and by the way, a few weeks ago my mom let me have the car when i slept over danielles and before we went there we were driving around and went past your house [i made it a point to] and then we went down to neds point [my first time there]. it was really pretty at night i got extremely emo when i went by your house [i stopped in the middle of the road to look in..the lights were on and someone was/people were in the living room, so i didnt stay. but i imagined what your room looked like and imagined you being up there and before then i saw kim at the movies once [did i already tell you?] and she was with at least one exchange student and a couple other people, i forget who else. the exchange student [whos from italy] is living with the elmses. i forget her name. but she has baaad english 
[i heard her talk IN AFS 
]. and i also keep seeing mrs gundersen cruising around in that little blue bug of hers [with the pink flower ]. i still have to get that video from kim i asked her when i saw her at the movies and she said she completely forgot about it, and i havent talked to her since. but damnit i want to seee!!! i havent even seen the final product yet ) sorrie i didnt write back right away..but the length should make up for that, right?
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH RUZANNA!!! NEVER FORGET THAT!
and never think for one second that i could EVER forget you
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